I hope I'm posting this in the right forum.
I wanted to provide some support for people who intentionally hurt themselves.
Ever since I can remember I have not been happy with myself of my life. I don't want to go into a whole lot of detail, but I have not always had the most supportive family. I didn't have many friends at school. I'm shy. I'm quiet. I was made fun of in school. I've strugged with depression for I don't know how long.
I first hurt myself in the 8th grade. I had to lie about what happened. I felt awful. I did the same thing only on a smaller scale in the 10th grade. When I was 17, I started hurting myself in a different way. It went on for months. Finally I realized that what I was doing was not good. I had to throw away what I was using to hurt myself. And make sure I couldn't find anymore.
I have always hit my head when I'd get extremely upset. I'd use anything I could find. Back in April I hit my closet door so hard that it came off the track and I almost passed out. Although not diagnosed by a doctor, I believe I had a concussion. The symptoms lasted for almsot 2 weeks. At that point, I knew I couldn't do this anymore.
I still feel like doing all of these things sometimes, but I have learned how to control it. There has been a couple times where I've hit myself again. But I have done so well controlling it.
I just wanted to let people know that you aren't alone. Although I have not, I would suggest seeing a counselor. Not everybody can stop this behavior on their own. But it is possible. Now that I realize what I was doing to myself I can't stand the thought of others doing the same. So please, if you do this help yourself.
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i started cutting in grade 7 then a few times this year in grade 11 and i too have just stopped, i tried coucling a few times but that went over very badly... so i also want people to know your not alone
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