I have a 'slight' (open for interpretation) dilemma here, so I'll just be frank: When it comes to females, there are a few barricades I run into. For whatever reason, in my mind, I do not like the thought of 'dating' or 'going out' with a girl. Maybe it's because I'm so anti-social, but even if it's a girl who is coming onto me (rare), I find the thought unappealing. I simply do not like the idea of spending so much time with, and 'confiding' in someone like that, I prefer the route of 'friends', casual conversation, hanging out and the like, with certain...added benefits..*ahem*. However, be it the way I was raised or whatever, I don't easily interpret the ladies as 'friends'. It is either, (to some degree)sexually involved, or strangers. There isn't much grey area there, I really can't bring myself to talk to women I find attractive. However; if by some miracle I manage to gain courtship with a girl, I just really don't like the idea. Maybe I'm too apathetic? Or...having only been in two relationships, maybe I'm just unexperienced? Also, I think part of the reason may be, because, when 'dating' you're expected to contribute and the like, and I'm just so afraid of myself, and looking stupid (I have teh anxietyz) that subconsciously, I can't bare myself to move forward. I know this seems random, but these are scattered thoughts, self reflections I'm having in a matter of minutes, and trying to jot it all down. Sorry for the rant, but can anyone provide me with adequate insight to sate my curiosity? Thanks in advance!
Follow up here; what I'm asking, since I didn't really say, is what is 'wrong' with me, per say? I am most assuredly heterosexual, but can't seem to bring myself to actually be with someone. Deep down I actually do like the idea of being with someone with a 'deep connection', but I don't really like confiding in anyone, and then having that information just tossed about freely once it's over with. Again, it probably seems like I'm contradictory to myself, but try to bare with me.
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