Back in May of this year my boyfriend and I broke up for about three weeks. During that time my local swimming pool opened and I met this guy named *B. He was really nice and we became friends, however I still loved my boyfriend *S and I was so happy when the three weeks were over and we got back together.
Well, I told S about B and he asked me not to talk to B anymore because he was worried that B would try to be with me as more than a friend. So I agreed. But, every once in awhile (and I seriously mean like twice a month and were only "hi, how are you?" type things) B would instant message me and we'd chat for like ten minutes tops. During the last of one of those short conversations B admitted to having a crush on me and even saying he loved me. I freaked out. This was several months later about mid-September of this year.
I told my boyfriend S, and he was very angry almost to the point of breaking up with me. He said I lied to him (when I said I wouldn't talk to B anymore) and he didn't know if he could trust me again. Well, fortunatly, here we are in almost January of 2003- my boyfriend and I have been going out for over a year, and B im'ed me today.
I talked briefly- meaning I explained very shortly why I couldn't talk to him (I didn't say the real reason) and then I blocked him and signed offline. It just hit me a few hours ago and it's been eating me up: I talked to B, again. I don't know what to do! I mean, it's not like we had an indepth conversation, it was very brief, but still I feel so bad and like such a fake. I don't know if I should tell my boyfriend, or if I should just forget about it...
Gosh, I'm so upset. What should I do? Is this really a big deal? Is honesty the best policy? I don't know what my boyfriend would do if I told him I talked to B again- even if it was briefly. I definitly do not want to fight (everything between my boyfriend and I has been wonderful lately) and I don't want him to break up with me because I love him so much and B dosen't mean anything to me, not even as a friend.