Hi. I'm not so sure about this, it's my first post, but I have no other place to go.. When I was 13, I was molested and I guess a fear of men and "sex" grew with me. It wasn't the last time I was abused.. One big blow to my life was during my 4-year relationship with a guy who recently forced me into having "back-door" sex.. It was probably one of the most horrific things I've ever been thru since it happened repeatedly, and I couldn't or just didn't stop it. We broke up, but I still feel so hurt. Now I tear up just at the thought of sex or masturbation or anything if my mind wonders or fantasizes.. It gets to the point where I'm officially scared and I really have trust issues. I talk to no-one about my problems, and feel so lost. My clitoris even hurts when I touch it.
I don't know what to do, and I don't feel normal, happy nor confident.
Can some-one who understands me reply? This is my last try.
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I am so very sorry you went through this. I honestly think that you should go get therapy. There is no way you can just 'get over' this and you need professional help for this. This way you can find a way to be able to stand up for yourself more and cope with what occurred.
Also, this is a little problem compared to your bigger issue but...touching your clitoris can hurt. Some women are too sensitive to be touched directly I've heard of many that couldn't. If you feel like you need to do this you can try to rub against your underwear or around your clitoris.
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