In your last post -- right here: http://www.scarleteen.com/forum/Forum28/HTML/000149.html -- I've given you some resources.
For right now, that is all we can give you. Whether it is because of a psychological disorder, or because you simply dismiss our guidelines, you seem to be having severe trouble understanding them and following them (despite agreeing to them when you registered), namely that the profanity and tone you've been using here are totally unacceptable.
So. As of right now, your use is suspended here. When you've got yourself a little more together, feel free to email and let us know and we'll consider resuming those priviledges. In the meanwhile, I suggest you look into those resources, as well as simply talking to your physician about any existing physical or emotional health concerns.
I suggest you do so sooner rather than later.
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