I'm terrified than ever, I'm trying my best to not panic. So my cousin and I are moving to a house tomorrow, so she took all the curtains down. They came down when it is dark out. I have a fear of opened curtains at night, I freak out. So, the curtains in the livingroom and dinning room are down. Before the fact I almost peed my pants from sever fear, my cousin needed water. As I'm filling the bucket, the neighbour decided to knock on the window. I screamed, jumped, held on to the fridge trying to grasp what happened. I peed a little. Anyways, at this point I'm terrifed. I calmed myself down then the front door sounded like someone was trying to break in, I nearly jumped off the bed in fear.
I'm really scared, scared shitless, it's dark outside, no flipping curtains in any room but the bathroom my cousin told me I can sleep in the livingroom with her. I know I will be on the ground and there is boxes where the window is and it's highly unluckly that someone would see me. I'm on edge, any sound I'm alart and I tense up, I'm basically living in a body who can't handle anything.
I feel nothing is protecting me, I feel I jumped out of my skin, I feel naked uncontrollabily scared out of my own flippin' mind. I just can't sleep with this fear, fear that someone is going to hurt me, the doors and windows are locked, the windows... there is no curtains. What is the point of locking the doors and windows when I already feel scared outta my mind.
What should I do? Any advice? My heart rate isn't stable, I've been on edge for the last 3-4 hours scared outta my mind.
Posts: 517 | From: Canada | Registered: Dec 2011
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Hi Alergnon. I'm afraid that this kind of thing is really far outside of the range of what we can do on this site. It's really not our area of expertise at all, and with our limited resources we can only address things to do with sex/sexuality/relationships.
I will say that for a phobia like this you could try getting some therapy or counselling to learn to reduce your fear around it.
Good luck, and I hope you're feeling better
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Hey Alergnon. I agree with Onionpie that this is not our area of expertise. BUT, I suggest you call a crisis line where you can get some in-person help.
Canadian Mental Health Association Crisis Line: 1-866-531-2600 toll-free
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