Until recently, I hadn't even thought about how I feel about my body for a long time. I used to hate it, but eventually I accepted my body as one complete whole, as opposed to just a bunch of flawed parts. Now, I'm realizing that my health is my number one concern in my life, and I want to work out and eat right, but I don't know where to start, especially because I have PCOS. Exercise has always been the sort of thing where it was something I did if I hated my body. Now I don't but I know I have to do it.
With that said, as much as I still have "fat days," I still like my body I like my calves, my chest, my shoulders, and I can definitely say there is more of me that I like than what I don't like. I actually was reading a book on fashion the other day, and the author had the reader do an exercise where they had to name 3 parts they considered flawed and 3 they liked. The idea that any part of me was flawed had not crossed my mind in a long time!
I'm happy to say that I am feeling pretty great about my body, as of late. Nothing on the outside happened, in particular, to heal the negative body image I used to have; I think I just got tired of being so hard on myself, and realized it was getting me nowhere. I used to be bulimic, and even after I had managed to break the binge/purge cycle I still restricted food (I followed a vegan diet) and thought about it a lot. Slowly, though, I've been able to reintroduce foods that I previously thought of as "bad," like bread and sweets, in moderation. Now I'm vegetarian, I eat a balanced diet and-- best of all-- I only think about food when I'm hungry, and I can stop eating when I'm full. It is such an amazing, liberating feeling not to be counting calories or worrying about the size of my stomach. And it's magical-- now that I've stopped obsessing about my body or perceived flaws, I feel better in my own skin than ever before.
Keeping my own "Body Book" really helped raise my self esteem. I bought a journal and, instead of pasting in cut-outs of models from magazines, I made an effort to find images of role models and mentors, kind notes from friends, and basically anything that made me feel good about myself. The end result was a book full of strong, empowering women of all shapes and sizes, positive messages, and reminders of how loved I am in this world as a human being, not just a physical body. Then, whenever I was feeling vulnerable or insecure, I could look at my Body-Book and remember that I'm awesome. I would recommend that exercise for anyone who could use a little extra support. It might seem like too much work, but it's fun, and the end result is more helpful than you might think.
I believe in the radical possibilities of pleasure, babe... I do, I do, I do. Posts: 140 | From: Montreal | Registered: Jul 2009
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