I've been frustrated for a very long time now. My school, no, my entire town, must be one of the straightest places on the face of the planet. Out of almost 900+ students, I know of only two gays, and two lesbians. All of the aforementioned have partners outside of town. As for bisexuals like myself? I haven't been able to find a single one. Maybe they're all too nervous to come out and say it, but that just makes them even harder to find.
So okay, I'm bi. There should be some guys available, right? Well there's the problem. Any guy I find even mildly attractive is taken, and the rest seem to composed of the stereotypical jerks who scream obscenities from the back of the bus. Not exactly my thing.
As for the girls, well, let's just say I'm of the minority who refuses to buy a pair of Uggs. A good half of them croon after everything High School Musical (how actual high school students like this thing is beyond me) and are more concerned with the newest Hollywood scandal than anything that holds any sort of meaning. So then there's me. Completely single. Never been on a date. Never been asked out. Never heard any rumors about so and so liking me. Absolutely nothing.
I know I'm not the only one, but at times I get so frustrated and lonely that I'm considering tearing my hair out. Not seriously of course, but you catch my drift.
For instance, I just found out two days ago that one of my friends got into a relationship, and another just had a guy ask her out. I call up another friend to hang out to help drown out my miseries, only to find out she's spending the weekend at her boyfriend's house.
They all say I'm lucky, but I'm not feeling that way. Spending all my hours at home, since I don't have a car, has gotten really old.
And going back to what I said before, as for a gay community? What gay community? There is none. It's incredibly shallow, I know, but for once, just once I'd like to have, or be, a special someone. Because right now, my life seems so very empty.
If you did, thanks for taking the time to read this.
-------------------- "Well, I'm sorry to say, but it seems your fish has drowned..." Posts: 3 | From: Connecticut | Registered: Oct 2008
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The quasi-funny part is that pretty much everyone feels like an outcast or like they don't fit in in high school, even those who, from a given perspective, look like they do.
But for sure, those of us who are queer are almost always going to be in the minority anywhere we go. That's just how it is. And in some areas, it's going to be a pretty big minority. Obviously, that is reallyisolating and frustrating, but the good news is that you don't have to choose to live where you are all of your life: this gets to be temporary if you want it to be.
Sometimes it can help to try and find social circles outside of school: is there a GLBT youth group in your area? What about volunteering for a cause that's meaningful for you to meet people outside school?
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Think about it like this: You might be one of the only girls who feels comfortable enough to date other girls at your school. As for the guys, I'm sure there are some nice ones who aren't taken. And even if they are, just wait until you get to college, whether community or a Uni or whatever, by then, everyone is way more comfortable with who they are, and are much more open. There are always LGBT groups in college, look into those even now. And socialize outside of school of course. A job or volunteer work is great with that, especially when it involves interacting with people your age. We all want someone special, and we all want to be special to someone, but that doesn't mean it has to be NOW. You have so much time ahead for that.
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