Ok...in August I accidently killed our 3 month old cat. I was switching loads of laundry and i didn't see her jump in the drier... you can guess the rest. (wow i haven't really talked about it for a while, thinking about it is just sad enough)anyway. That was the first cat of ours that has died..and what is even worse, i am the one who killed her. Well im still greaving, but i've kinda of stopped thinking about her all the time, thank god. But i think there was a side effect to all that happening...
Every time someone yells for me, i'm scared something/someone is dead or hurt. For example.. I will be upstairs, and my mom downstairs, my mom will yell for me, and i run to her because i'm scared somehting is wrong. Its a horrible feeling. especially when she yells loudly because it seems like she really realy needs me up there pronto.
One time i was watching tv, and my mom made this weird noise, it was like a scream/cry.. it was because my tree frog jumper on her when she was feeding it (i didn't know that) but the first thing that came to my head was my dog died somehow, or my dad was in an accident. Another time i was at school, i was called to the office to pick up a message (i knew i wasn't riding the bus or anything..i had track) but the first thing that came to my mind that someone in my family was in an accident.
But things like that happen all the time now. I hate being called somewhere randomly because i'm scared something is wrong. I know that it can be normal..but i don't think that it should of gone to this extreme.. Do you think this is all because of the whole cat stuff? Thanks.
Another thing... is it normal to hate feeling uneven? Like if you skip a step with one leg, you have to skip a step with the other or your uneven, or when your stretching and one arm feels more stretched then the other so you have to stretch the other one, and then you still feel uneven. Or when you looking out the window in the car, and it feels weird cause your other side of your neck feels like it hasn't been in the same position... like things like that...is that common.
Thanks for all thehelp..i think it might be in my head..but i don't know...
[This message has been edited by Lazybabe101 (edited 01-11-2004).]