Right now in Australia, hundreds of year 12 students are sitting their Higher School Certificate. For those who don't know, this basically determines whether or not they go to university next year. I'm one of these students. It is a very stressful time. I wasn't sure what topic to put this under. Lately I've been feeling under a lot of pressure by my parents etc, and slowly I've been feeling like my life is crap. I only have one exam left but it seems that there is even more pressure put on me to do well, and to get the mark that THEY want me to. I've hidden it from everyone and I guess myself, and its only the past week or so I've begun to feel so bad. Last week I felt so bad I was thinking of overdosing on my pill. I'd taken three before (only because I missed two days) and a threw up, so I knew more would probably do worse. I have a boyfriend of 9 months who I love and is also doing his HSC, but he seems partly to blame only because of my mum who reckons he isn't trying and doesn't seem committed to school work so how could he be committed to a job, but she doesn't know anything! I just wish I knew what to do, because I'm sick of crying myself to sleep everynight. And I'm sick of pretending to be happy to everyone.
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I'm in Perth and I did my TEE year last year. I know how stressful it can be with all that pressure. I too had alot of pressure, and just like you found myself crying myself to sleep all of the time just because of the stress.
A year later, I have learned alot of things looking back on that year. For me, that was one opf the biggest things (if not the biggest) that I've ever had to deal with. I went to a VERY competivie academic religious school, and at times I felt like I couldnt go on. But you've made it SO far, and in just one most exam, if nothing else, you'll be able to say "Hey, I accomplished something really amazing, and I made it thought the whole year". And beleive me, that really feels amazing.
Make sure you get enough sleep up until your exam, and try to use music or some other aid to help yourself relax before bed every night. I found that if I made time (even just 5 minutes) to conciously RELAX at the end of a day of study, I felt better in the morning.
Don't ever lose sight of the big picture. There is SO much more out there than your HSC. I know people seem to tell you otherwise, but there are always other paths to go down. You do anything that you want with your life, HSC or no HSC.
A year on, I can say with all certianty that although yes, I was the biggest sresshead, and yes, I was pressured and thought I was tortured and wanted to die sometimes, I actually miss school - that amy seem crazy for you to think about, but I feel so good to have got through.
Lastly, it's EXTREMELY important that if you are feeling suicidal or need help, you get that help. I know there are other helplines across Australia, but the only one that comes to mind now is The Kids Helpline.
The number for The Kids Helpline is 1800 555 1800. They also have a website with online counselling at www.kidshelp.com.au
We all care about what happens to you here, so make sure you look after yourself, ok?
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I'm a Yank and have no idea how thing are done in Australia, so I have no great advice about your exams. But about your pills, from what you said I assume you're refering to your birth control pills. Beyond making you sick, it won't acomplish a thing. You'll still have to take the exams, you'll still do well or not, you'll go to university or you won't. making yourself sick is not going to help in anyway. No kind of pill is, was or ever will be the answer. Take a deep breath, it will be over soon, then you can deal with what is instead of what if.
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Hey Kity, I did my HSC in 1998, and my brother is doing his right now (he has his last exam today actually). I don't know what mark you need to get into university, and how confident you feel inasfar as getting that mark goes, but I do know that a lot of people stress more about the HSC than is necessary- once you're at university all your marks will seem irrelevant- I know people who got a UAI in the high ninties, but have failed attempts at more than one degree, while I know others who didn't even get their HSC and have/had Distinction averages.
As for your parents- have you tried talking calmly to them about how you feel? Perhaps even writing them a letter? It might help if they knew that the extra stress that they're placing upon your shoulders is disrupting your studies.
I did my VCE (Victorian Certificate of Education) in 1995. It was stressful, but it wasn't the worst thing I've ever dealt with. Trust me, its not as bad as you think.
I'll put it this way: my first round choice was Aerospace Engineering, which I got into, with English CAT scores of B+/C+/D+. I screwed up, but a few bad results don't doom you!
There are many paths through life. Even if things do go wrong, you have many options. Most universities offer some means of alternative entry, even if it involves doing a year or two extra at an associates degree.
So relax, and remember: your future is not hanging on this. Doing well is good, but doing badly isn't "game over".
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