I lost my virginity this past weekend. I always thought I would wait until I was married or at least when I was in a good relationship. What really happened was I ditched a party that I was at to hook up with a guy that I met there in his car around the corner. I didn't really know him very well except for his first name and that he was very attractive and appealing..(he didn't know I was a virgin)..and after the sex...i knew that he knew what he was doing. At first I didn't mind the fact that I had just had sex with practically a stranger because it really felt good. The whole irrationality of the whole situation settled in and I freaked out. One thing I was relieved about is that he still talked to me afterwards. I wound up having sex with him a few days after also but before I did; I told him about my previous virginity..and he wasn't too thrilled. He really felt bad that he was my first and that it was a huge deal and I should have told him. That kinda relieved me also because I knew that he cared somewhat about my well-being. Needless to say..I started get attached and clingy..i'm not really emotionally attached to him because I know I don't love him.. I am although mentally/physically attached to him..for instance I never stop thinking about the sensations and pleasure that he gave me and I can almost still feel his touch. This worries me somewhat because i'm pretty sure that this is just a fling and it's not going to last...unless some miracle happens and he's not like most other guys just wanting a piece of a$$ with no strings attached (which I doubt he is no matter how nice and gentlemanly he is). The whole situation is in his hands as far as in what direction this whole fling is going to go in. But I seriously am not patient enough for him to call me...that is IF he's going to call! It's driving me nuts and I really don't know where to go from here. Any avice as to how I should deal with this sticky situation? (BTW..we used protection..don't bother with the lectures..i've got that part taken care of.) I kept telling myself that I wouldn't regret this..and right now, i don't really regret it as much as I just feel bad about the situation in which it happened. I might regret it later if/when he disappears from my life completely. Anyway...any help?..tips?..hints?...advice??
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