okay, there's this guy i'm kind of friends with. i'm totally totally utterly in love with him.

well, i finally told him that i like him. of course, his response sucked. he was like, "i think i'd have to get to know you better." whatever.

i don't know if i'll ever see him again so yeah..it kind of sucks.

i'm trying to put it behind me and get on with my life, but it's hard. he just seems SO awesome and i feel like i could never meet anyone as cool and special and weird as he is. i've still been thinking about him and that talk and being so close to him and..ugh.

but, this is the first time i've ever told anyone i like them, so i am proud of that. i just had to tell the world! (i'm 18, social anxiety, late bloomer.)

i'm not sure if he really wants to be friends with me anyway, because he never calls or emails me or acts very interested. and yet, he seems to love when i call or email him. (he's always asking why i haven't called/emailed lately. maybe he just enjoys the attention.)