Well...I'm glad to hear people still remember me.
'Laska, I'm still using all my email accounts, intermittently.
Life's been busy - work went completely berserk when my boss dropped a NASA project on me, and I've been going crazy ever since. It's been kind of cool though - interesting, fairly simple work, and I'm working with a cool chick. Until now, I've mostly been stuck behind my PC, working on my own, mostly...
Lauren's up in NYC for the week, which I think is unfair! Why do I always get stuck at work?
Coming up on the anniversary of the terror attacks. Depressing, because you know TV is going to be full of insincere blather about tragedy and evil.
I just wish people would look at the world. Why does all this give George Bush a pretext to attack Iraq? Why are they discussing something as idiotic as a cruise missile defense system? Why on Earth does the arbiter of peace, justice, and freedom, decry an international treaty to create a war crimes court? Only a moron would honestly think the American judiciary system capable of prosecuting its own war criminals.
All the murders, all the "collateral damage", all the rhetoric, and all the propaganda, and people just can't get it through their heads that there is more going on than they think. Has anyone even explained WHY September 11 happened? Those guys weren't insane: they HAD to have a motive.
Tell me this: what do they even think they're accomplishing? New jargon: blocking forces, daisy-cutter bombs. New rhetoric: "the war against terror", "the axis of evil". New ideas? Nope - they're fighting a moderately successful campaign against the wrong enemy. If the war is being won, why is Al Qaeda still financially strong? Why are they still recruiting? And why haven't serious questions been asked of Saudi Arabia?
It seems to me that 100 years of bad foreign policy has come around to bite America on the bum.
If George Bush cares about peace, justice, and freedom, he should spend even a fraction of the money he's wasting hunting paper tigers on helping the starving billions of the world.
Richard, you're alive! Glad to hear that you're well and happy. Even if Lauren did get a vacation while you didn't. haha
I don't agree with too much of your take on the current geopolitical situation, but not to worry. The beauty of this country is that we can disagree all we want and have it be Constitutionally protected! Good call about Saudi Arabia though...I've been asking myself the same question for months.
You take care of yourself out there, will ya? And tell Lauren her illicit boyfriend says hi! heehee
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Well, that project stayed frenetic. Last week we had a major meeting with the client (NASA Ames/Langley). That was - we kept getting fried for mistakes we didn't make.
The "cool chick" I'm working with turned out to be a somewhat annoying dweeb. She keeps wasting my time asking me questions about her homework! (She's doing a Masters)
I mean its not like I have a million other things to do...
On top of that, she tries to blame me for her own mistakes, and being the arrogant bastard that I am, I don't like being told I'm wrong. I usually end up replying to her complaints (which she CC's our boss...), informing them of the real problem, which is coincidentally enough, not my fault. heh
Oh well, half the people on the planet are incompetent weasels. I just happen to be a barely competent weasel.
Looking forward to a (well-deserved) long weekend. Even if every time I shut my eyes, I seem to see a weird mish-mash of C++. Sort of Zen, I guess.
So how is all you peoples? Are Dan and Bepster married yet?
Goodness gracious! I don't think I was ever really around too much when you were active here, but oh did I miss your wit and humor in previous posts! So glad you're back.
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The missus is up in NY tonight, so I'm just bumming around here on my own.
Been doing a lot of reading lately. Plenty of variety: classics, military tactics/history, philosophy, and God.
Why God? Hey - I'm an atheist! Ignoring the usual ignorant drivel spouted about atheism, atheism is a search for truth.
Personally, I could care less if the truth I find comes from Jehovah, Allah, Buddha, Set, or no God at all. Unlike theists, I am prepared to put any theory or source on an equal footing. To me, the Bible is no different than the Veda or the Torah. (But...I can't read Sanskrit, Hebrew, or Latin...bummer.)
I found Gandhi's perspective most interesting: every religion is a search for Truth. They're all just shades of the same fundamental Truth, distorted by humanity's limited consciousness. His take on the Truth was "ahimsa". A Hindu/Jainist(?) concept that expresses total non-violence.
I sort of like that idea. Even if its wrong, its the best social code (and that is how I've always viewed religion: a purely social function) I've ever heard of. Ironically, its already expressed to some extent in every major religion, including the oft-maligned Wiccans. It's just a pity no one ever tries for some form of non-violence.
From that standpoint, its almost amusing that I've developed a major interest in combined arms tactics. I've been reading texts by/on Alexander the Great, Hannibal, Guderian, Rommel, Manteuffel, and Zhukov. (The last four are WW2 German and Russian generals. The first two should be known to anyone!) I find the similarities between Hannibal and Guderian's tactics interesting.
And then, I've also been reading some classics. Mostly Dante: I find his perspective on life fairly interesting.
Sorry to anyone who is upset by this, but there ya go.
I still think about you guys occasionally, but never seem to have the time (or the memory...you'd be amazed how forgetful I am at the end of the week) to post.
Things are the same, I guess. Things are good with Lauren - she's about the only good thing in my life at this point.
I guess that's not strictly true. I have a better job than most, and things are ok there - I had a trip out to NASA Ames a few weeks ago for a presentation, which injected a bit of excitement. I'd like to get some papers published, but that's another story.
Its just...flat. Its all so unfulfilling. I mean all I do all day is fiddle with numbers, and write programs to make more. End result: ten years from now (when anything I do will have an effect), airlines will be able to burn more fuel per passenger-mile than they do already. Deliciously wasteful.
I've also been feeling very tired lately. Ever have those days where you feel like you're 120? I'm not even 26 but I feel so mortally old. I finally bit the bullet and I'm on anti-depressants (3 weeks now), but I still feel enervated and listless. Its almost like you can chip away the veneer of unhappiness without even scratching the malaise beneath.
I suppose I've gone from teen angst to twenty-something "so, this is life?". Bleh. I can't wait til I'm thirty and can bitch about wrinkles...
On the plus side, I have Pro-Pain to listen to until Futurama starts. Lauren's not home, so I can stick on my "mean" music.
Damn, Richard! You get your arse around here more often and you won't need those antidepressants ever again!
Sorry to hear about your doldrums, but will it help if I tell you that you aren't the only one? Sometimes I wish it was 10 or so years ago. At least then you could be a slacker and get away with it. Even the movies of the time seemed to promote such a lifestyle. But now, man, we're just drones. You mean to tell me I stayed awake in junior high and served detention in high school and noshed on top raman in college for this?!
Hang in there, dude. Somebody somewhere is looking down at us and lauuugghhiinnggg....
quote:Oh yeah - we were down in lovely Fredericksburg/Spotsylvania, when we saw something funny at a 7-11. A vending machine.
A vending machine that sells LIVE BAIT!
I almost died laughing, but then I realised...I'm living among these rednecks. I nearly wet my pants with fear.
sorry, but i grew up here and had to comment. Live Bait at the 7-11 is only the beginning... trucks wit 4-foot-wheels (useful in mudbogging!) are not uncommon, and unlined roads may outnumber the lined ones.
Welcome to Virginia. yee-haw!
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Wellll...another "hi, I'm still alive" post.
Not much new, really.
Had a visit from Dad, and then my best mate. That was great - I've known him for two decades, but hadn't seen him for 2.5 years!
Work is busy. Very busy. All I seem to do is code and code. And fly to San Jose. And sit in stupid meetings. And deal with a co-worker who is marginally smarter than plankton.
The missus is fine. A bit frazzled, cos she just started her degree again. Her mother is having a hysterectomy soon...to head off cancer.
That's thrown something of a spanner into things. She and her mother have both been stressed, and they argue when they get stressed, and they get stressed when they argue. It all sucks, but with a bit of luck, it will all blow over.
Apart from that, I've been reading a fair bit. Philosophy and history, mostly. Better that than the news; between Iraq and US politics, I'd rather not know!
I've been getting most of my news from www.morons.org, which is definitely good for a laugh. Its also a downer, because there's only so many lunatic Christian fundamentalist stories you can read, before you start to lose respect for humanity...
I'm presently on a cocktail of anti-depressants, which helps. I've been more positive lately, but one of them just KOs me at the end of the day. Its funny: I can take mild sleeping pills, Tylenol PM, or drink a bottle of wine, and I won't feel sleepy...but these things knock me out!
I guess its all to the good, though. Lack of sleep is my bane.
I'm sorry about your seperation, but I'm glad your doing well past that.
Hope to see you around more!
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