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My first time

Unread postby Dimples11 » Sat Aug 11, 2018 7:32 am

My first time having sex was a very unusual experience....it left me filled with so many questions that I still can't seem to find the answers to. I've been with my boyfriend for four years and it was a first for us both. It started off very painful and as it eased up there still seemed to be a very unfamiliar pressure that lingered. Even after he penetrated completely and was moving in and out of me easily I still felt this uncomfortable horrible feeling...I kept on searching or well waiting for it to pass but I felt no pleasure at all. It actually didn't feel pleasant at all at one point it actually hurt and I didn't want to tell my boyfriend because it's not his fault he did everything perfectly he was gentle and caring but I just felt like I was stuck in this spiral that was so uncomfortable....I don't know what to do or what to feel ....when we were done he saw that I was crying quietly but I brushed it off because I didn't want him to know that it didn't feel good for me it actually wasn't nice at all and I hate myself for feeling this way...I only went on and continued with the act for his pleasure ....please help I don't know what to do or why it's like this we used lubrication to make it easier but I felt nothing and I haven't told him about any of this either...I don't want him to feel like he was hurting me or that he did something wrong so what should I do ? Is it maybe because it's my first time so I have to get use to it what ....I'm so confused what is sex suppose to actually feel like? Should I maybe speak to my boyfriend about it ?

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Re: My first time

Unread postby Sam W » Sat Aug 11, 2018 7:59 am

Hi Dimples,

I'm sorry that this experience was so unpleasant for you. Before we touch on anything else, I want to point out that sex of any kind is not something someone is supposed to just get used to if it's painful or uncomfortable. When you're feeling those things, it's a sign from your body and brain that you need to hit the pause button. Now, sex can be a bit fumbly and awkward, and may not feel the greatest it ever does during your first few times, but those things often get resolved by communication between partners. It's tricky to talk about what sex is "supposed" to feel like because human sexual experiences are so varied and there's no one, correct way for it to feel. A more helpful question might be: how would you like to feel during your sexual experiences?

I think your idea about speaking to your about this is a good one. If you two are planning on being sexual again, it's important for you to be honest about how unpleasant this experience was for you. If you'd like, we can use this space to brainstorm how to have that talk with him. This article also has some tools for talking about sexual things with a partner: Be a Blabbermouth! The Whats, Whys and Hows of Talking About Sex With a Partner . Can I ask why you didn't feel okay speaking up about the pain when it was happening? Was it only because you were worried about his feelings, or were there other reasons as well?

Painful intercourse can happen for lots of reasons (which you can read about here: From OW! to WOW! Demystifying Painful Intercourse ) although you two took a big step in eliminating a common reason for pain by using lube. How were you feeling prior to having vaginal sex? Were you excited and aroused, or pretty nervous? And had the two of you spent time on other sexual activities before vaginal intercourse?


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