Thank for clarifying, I wanted to be sure you'd had a pretty full panel of STI tests, given your worries. As for your question about HIV, to quote from this article Positively Informed: An HIV/AIDS Roundup
,"The window period is the time from when someone is infected with HIV to when someone actually shows up positive on an HIV test. Most rapid HIV tests look for antibodies that your body makes in response to HIV infection. Around 97% of people with HIV will have these antibodies within 1 month of infection, but some folks take up to 3 months to make these antibodies." But really, once you get the results you can assume they are accurate unless a healthcare provider adds some sort of caveat to them. Too, something to keep in mind is that if you decide to be sexually active with this partner after you get your test results, making an agreement to always use latex barriers of some kind during sex will go a long way towards decreasing your risks and potentially lowering your anxiety. Do you think the two of you can set that limit?
As for finding some mental health resources in your area, one place to start is with some of the resources listed on this site: https://www.canada.ca/en/public-health/ ... lness.html
. I'd also suggest giving this article a read, as it covers steps for finding a mental health professional to work with one on one: Process This: Getting the Most Out of Therapy
. Looking at those resources, do you see one or two steps you could take today to help you find the support you need?