1. My friends are really accepting of my identity. They try their best to use my name and pronouns and to be sensitive. But sometimes they bring up things that make me very uncomfortable. My best friend (cis gay male) who has a very sexual sense of humor randomly asked me and another friend (gender fluid pansexual) if we masturbated. He immediately said that yes, he did, and my other friend, C, just laughed and said she does sometimes. I put my head down on the table and tugged at my hair because it's a very... touchy subject. Honestly, yes, I do masturbate. Only because I'm a horny teenager who needs to get off just like anyone else, not because I like the thought of sticking a dildo in a body part I'm not meant to have. It's only in the heat of the moment when I'm breathing shallow and biting my lip that I feel good, but when I'm done this overwhelming depression comes over me. What can I do about this? Should/can I keep getting off?
2- This kid keeps making fun of me. It's not a cool, popular kid. It's the "village idiot." He called me a dickless man/a chode, a scrawny little fag, a pussy and tried to physically fight me. He told me I'm just mad no boys want to suck my clit. And it's not like anyone else is like this, I get called "he/him" "man/bro/dude" quite a lot. I get nodded at/acknowledged by other boys in the halls and I'm just one of the guys. But this dude is just pissing me off. I've told counselors who make me write him up, but he'll stop for a few days then start again. How do I deal with this lovely character?