Hi, DoodleBob here! I'm in need of some help/advice and I don't have anyone in my life to confide in at the moment. I'm a girl and I'm headed to college in a few weeks, hope that's okay to say on here, and I've been questioning my sexual orientation so much for about...several months. Am I straight? Bi-sexual? just Bi-curious? I don't know, this is hard for me. Labels are hard for me but confusion is also just as hard. These feelings probably started when my high school friend, A, came out as bisexual and immediately afterwards I told her I was bi-curious. I've been going back and forth as bi curious and bi sexual since graduation and now I'm just frustrated and more confused. I told another girl, J, I had feelings for her because I knew that she was into girls as well, is going to my college, and I thought she was really cute and I wanted her to like me but she rejected me because she has a relationship going on. I feel really lost right now. Just to mention, sometimes I deny that this confusion is even happening, like self-denying. I'm constantly fighting with myself to even admit that I'm thinking about this and having these feelings, attractions and fantasies. Maybe I'm scared of the labels. Plus, my family is accepting - as long as it's not their kid. Hah, how silly is that logic. I could never tell my parents.. I'm going to try to list some questions that I have to hopefully get a more constructive response:
-How can I tell if I am straight or Bi-sexual? Are there any tale-tell signs or hints?
-If I'm bi-curious, how can I go about figuring out if I'm Bi-sexual or straight?
-How would I properly go about trying to "experiment" with another girl? I don't want to offend anyone by trying to "experiment"
-How do I know if others are bi-sexual, questioning, curious, lesbian etc? How could I breach that conversation without being intrusive or weird?
-Why do I go through periods of self-denial about this issue? How can I help myself stop self-denying?
Last but not least, thank you so much for spending the time to read this, it means a lot to me. Thank you