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I've struggled with body dysmorphia my whole life. I lost 100 lbs in a few years. Over the past year I gained 30 back but kept a good shape the rest of my body.
My initial motive for weight loss was to fit in, essentially with the men. It worked. Even now I get male attention but I'm less satisfied than before. I'm on a new fitness/nutrition program to lose those lbs I've gained so I can go back to being the way I was when I was lighter. To be honest I just love being light and thin. I feel that it outweighs all my other flaws. If I'm (what I feel is considered) chubby (to me) I identify as a skinny girl trapped in a fat suit.
Don't get me wrong, I'm cool with other people of all shapes and sizes. I'm a people person, but it's myself that I have standards for. I admit that I have a problem with my self esteem. So I was wondering if anyone on here knew of any online organisations for people with self esteem issues and body dysmorphia?