You're not disappointing anyone. Managing anxiety is challenging, especially without some kind of qualified help, even if that help is just a self-help book written by someone who is an expert about anxiety.
As you know, we will NOT engage with pregnancy scares here, though, so I need to be clear and ask you to please stop trying to get us to do that, directly or indirectly.
However, if you would like some resources or direction when it comes to getting help learning to manage your anxiety, we can do that. Additionally, if you want help about how to talk to a partner about something like your anxiety, we can help you out with that as well.
Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has. - Margaret Mead