Hey kreed95,
I know you have mostly been talking with Sam, Heather, and the writ3r, but I have been following what you have been sharing on the boards, and I was heartbroken to see this thread.
I am so sorry this happened to you. You did nothing wrong. It is not your fault.
You do have the agency to do everything you can to keep yourself as safe as possible moving forward, so I want to echo what Sam and Heather have suggested: it's time to take some action steps.
First, reach out for support from one of these resources.
This is the link Sam shared for rape crisis centers in Alabama:
https://acaralabama.org/crisis-centers
And here are the resources that were shared on your last thread:
http://www.alabamapublichealth.gov/inju ... enters.pdf
https://www.womenshelters.org/sta/alabama (YWCAs are a good resource)
http://www.ywcabham.org/domestic-violen ... d-programs
https://scotland.shelter.org.uk/get_adv ... stic_abuse (a resource in Scotland, but still w/ relevant info)
Second, as Heather said, when someone shows they will do us harm once, they have shown us we are at real risk of more harm from them. For your safety, it is important for you to leave this relationship. A first step towards keeping yourself safe from your boyfriend is texting him to let him know that you want some space so please do not come visit you or contact you, until you say so.
Have you called one of the resources?
Have you sent a text to your boyfriend letting him know you need space?
How did those things go?