Emotional Abusive Relationship

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Re: Emotional Abusive Relationship

Unread postby Heather » Wed Mar 06, 2019 7:38 am

Totally! Also, this never has to be either/or. But it can for sure be a decent stopgap (in some ways, not so much in others) when therapy isn't available for someone.

It's fine for you to be using the boards here the way you have been, but if you prefer something more private, there's always our chat service. That's something you can catch in the hours it's open (those times are listed here: http://www.scarleteen.com/need_help_now ... t_services), or something where you can ask for a time outside those if you want to talk with someone specific or those open times just don't work for you. :)
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Re: Emotional Abusive Relationship

Unread postby coolcats222 » Fri Mar 15, 2019 2:33 pm

Thanks all.

I am wondering if anyone -ie. Heather - has any words here -The old stuff is finally gone ( I am realizing that some people will not stay in our lives and that's for the better, and there is no 'trophy" for keeping said-friends in life and sometimes its' better not to have a bow tie and beautifully wrapped past.

I sort of feel in-between: the old is gone, yet the new is still not here yet. I know that as I have new experiences/accomplishments, this experience will too fade away or be minimized in the grand scheme of things. But I am waiting in a sense for the time to pass. I have a big school goals and have personal goals too - but wondering if anyone has any word on how to do better self-care/navigate this "in-between" phase?

The thoughts still come and I just have to remind myself that this isn't as big and soon will blur away as i experience more and new experiences

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Re: Emotional Abusive Relationship

Unread postby Sam W » Sat Mar 16, 2019 7:28 am

Hi coolcats,

One thing I've found helps people during those "in-between" phases is to view then as an opportunity in and of themselves. Are there things you've been wanting to try, changes you want to make to your life or routines? Now is a great time to give them a go. They don't have to be big, important things either; they can be hobbies you're curious about or have let fall to the wayside, fun rituals for yourself (like taking yourself out once a week for fancy coffee or dinner), things like that. It can help this feel like just another part of your year, rather than a sort of weird, waiting room period. Does that make sense?

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Re: Emotional Abusive Relationship

Unread postby coolcats222 » Sat Mar 16, 2019 1:32 pm

Yes, I think that's true - and I am planning to sign up for a running event that I know that I will enjoy as a celebration


I wonder if the real issue isn't the "waiting period" for someone/something else but rather just processing the emotions/feeling/whathaveyou.

I think the reason I feel bad is that at some level, i am still blaming myself for it and I have to go back and re-read what Heather wrote earlier that it is not something that is normally seen right away (even if I had hints, I blame myself for not coming here earlier, etc)--; that it takes many people much time to recognize the problems/dysfunction...

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Re: Emotional Abusive Relationship

Unread postby coolcats222 » Sat Mar 16, 2019 6:13 pm

coolcats222 wrote:Yes, I think that's true - and I am planning to sign up for a running event that I know that I will enjoy as a celebration


--I wonder if the real issue isn't the "waiting period" for someone/something else but rather just processing the emotions/feeling/whathaveyou.

---I think the reason I feel bad is that at some level, i am still blaming myself for it and I have to go back and re-read what Heather wrote earlier that it is not something that is normally seen right away (even if I had hints, I blame myself for not coming here earlier, etc)--; that it takes many people much time to recognize the problems/dysfunction...



---The other big thought is that I only have a few weeks of vacation every-year and in the last year, all vacations were surrounding him who was just terrible. I was in my dream locations yet sad and just simply felt unheard/unsupportive etc. Including recently. So looking back, a lot of thoughts are about how he acted (his choice, not on me), how he always acted (last 4 vacation/trips), and I feel sad/angry that I lost that time when I could have been elsewhere. He acted terribly and worst than a stranger. I guess its about re-enforcing those boundaries that I failed to do earlier.

Now, it's a lot of hard work but I can take another break in 2-3 months so perhaps I can look forward to that.

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Re: Emotional Abusive Relationship

Unread postby Heather » Mon Mar 18, 2019 7:59 am

I wonder if you can think of this in-between time as the social/emotional version of a big deep breath and a big long exhale.

I know that sounds a little cheesy, but bear with me here: know how when we do that with breathing, when we really take the time to stretch out that inhale and exhale, and really let ourselves feel the space it makes in our lungs, our whole bodies, even our heads? This time can be a lot like that: about making space for yourself and your heart and your head.

Like Sam suggested, can you use this time and space to focus on the parts of your life and yourself that may have gotten less attention or focus (or none at all), and regroup and reconnect with those? How about with a friend or two you probably fell out of touch with during your relationship with your ex, but would like to reconnect with? Or some new friends it sounds like you could make with your plans for that run? What about things you have wanted to try or do, but haven't yet gotten the chance to?

Sometimes one of the great things about having this kind of "time-between" is that you get a chance to re-assess and re-experience all of what you want in your life, and your day-to-day, so that if or when you start dating again, you go into it having a better sense of the place there is for it in your life, especially if you also a) want it to be healthy for you and b) want it to really add to your life, rather than be your whole life, or only really mesh with very limited parts of it, know what I mean?

I don't know about you, but I'm a big reader, and I also like to use times like these in my life to re-read a book or two that I have previously found very inspiring or influential, to kind of remind myself of who I am and what really matter to me: to get re-inspired about my own self and life.
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