Hi everyone.
My boyfriend and I of almost 3 years are currently going through some struggles. Throughout most of our relationship, I felt like I was the one who cared the most and just did everything. Our relationship was a lot of ups and downs and I’ve gotten to the point where I just need a break. I still love him very much of course. And at the end of the day, I close my eyes and I can still see us getting married someday. We didn’t have a very happy start to our relationship to begin with because his ex was in the picture and THAT is a different story in itself
The main issue is, within the last few months, I started developing feelings for a close friend of mine (which he knows about) this friend of mine has confessed his feelings to me but understands that at the end of the day, it’s my choice who I decide to be with. He’s very funny, attentive, caring, and honestly, I love the way he likes me. When he looks at me, I can tell he’s admiring me and I’d be lying if I said I don’t picture being with him sometimes.
My boyfriend and I aren’t really on a “break” per say, but I have asked for some more space right now and I just know I can’t keep going on in this limbo forever.
My boyfriend NOW has started showing he cares about me, but I feel like it took all of this just for him to wake up and be a good boyfriend. I’ve felt like crap a lot in the relationship and I know it was because he was busy and all that jazz but it’s still no excuse to put in no effort. He’s constantly sad now and I know he’s hurting but I’m trying to do what’s best for me.
I just don’t know what that is.
If I end up deciding to be with my boyfriend, I’d have to cut ties with the guy (who I consider a best best friend) and that pains me.
I guess I also don’t know if my feelings for my best friend are clouding my judgment in regards to my relationship. I feel like I’d be a lot sadder if I didn’t have feelings for my best friend and it sucks but I just feel like I spent a good chunk of our relationship being sad, stressed and doing the absolute most for him and he just sat back and accepted my love without giving back.
Please please, I need some advice. I feel completely torn and lost and I just need some advice from someone on the outside
Please know I appreciate every comment so much. Thank you